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Mood: depressed as hell...
Listening To: E.S. Posthumus
Reading: Laurell K. Hamilton
Watching: MGS history
Playing: MGS4
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i know i havent been on much, but i cant help it! i've hit one of those bumps in life where its completely thrown off my enjoyment of the summer.
life has been so cruel.. ;A;

you dont have to respond to this entry or anything. it just felt so good to get all of this off my chest in the most non-violent way XD


_{i have a mother who's been harassing me about getting a job. i've been wanting to work, but she's just been on my ass so much about it that i've completely lost interest. well, thats the only way i can describe how i feel about it right now. i'm mostly nervous because i've never had a real job before and i dont know what to do, or if i would be good enough at doing the job[i feel like i would be terrible behind a cash register!]. plus, i'm so upset that i dont have a car to get around in. mom insists that we can share hers and i'm trying to understand the logic here since we would both be working.
i really dont know where to start about job searching either. i have no idea what i want to do, but i know i definitely dont want to be working at shoprite or doing restaurant work. working late is also another issue; since part-time is supposedly later at night, that totally ruins my Tae Kwon Do schedule. classes for TKD are later at night, so i would have to give it up for this summer.
if only there was a quick and easy way to make moneys ;_;
ugh i'm so upset and tired....
i also wanted to take this summer to sit down with my book and find myself an agent/editor/publisher. but its been hard to just sit down and focus at all before something is going on. i want to be doing more art as well, but all of these complications just dont put me in the mood to create, which leaves me in an even more terrible mood! all i want is to have a nice summer...}


thanks for letting me vent. it helps to much to just express myself this way instead of running around looking for a big punching bag.

i was in the midst of writing this when my friend saw my angry away message; we talked the situation over, and so we're going to fill out some applications in the nearby mall. oh mann, wish me luck...

maybe if i get a job i can get this: [link]
i've been staring at it for three days straight. i want it so badly that i'm rolling around in agony. and now i dont have a credit card ;A;


well, i suppose there is one bit of news that is on the brighter side. a stray kitten found its way to our shed and has been living under there since saturday. i've been feeding it and loving it. she's the most lovable and adorable thing i've ever come across! so far, the rest of the family has decided to keep her as our outdoor pet. i cant convince them to let her inside D:
if i show some pictures of her in the next journal, i would love you guys' opinion about what to name her!



ugh i hope this all works out...!!
~Quince

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